By Brittany Davis
People have this misconception that everything in life should be black and white. That if you want something, getting it is really that simple. But it rarely is. There’s often more too it than that. Our emotions complicate that. Logic may be black and white, but life is just different shades of gray.
People say it’s hard when you want something and you can’t have it. Then you have the people who have something and simply don’t want it. See, that’s black and white. You either have it or you don’t. But what about the people who don’t know what they want? The people in the gray area. When something is black or white, the outcomes are known. The consequences are weighed and decisions can be made. The only problem comes from allowing yourself to actually commit and pick a side
When your stuck in that gray area, you know nothing. You don’t know what you want. And there is nothing worse then not knowing. To not know what you want is to be in a constant battle within yourself. Never allowing yourself to be fully happy, and never caring if your miserable. You just don’t know how you want to feel. Or even if you do. When you’re gray”you’re numb and that internal battle gets tiring. Trying to figure out if you want this or that. It becomes easier to just cut yourself off. Detach the head and heart. Become emotionless. It gets easier to just not feel. Sure, it has some benefits. You become more of a tank top person; no more heart on your sleeve. You can never feel rejected, because you don’t feel it in you enough to care. You get to just be. Be by yourself. But sometimes that’s exactly what happens.
You are by yourself. It’s important to know there’s a difference between liking to be alone, and being lonely. And too many times that’s what happens. You teach yourself how to not care and that’s exactly what happens; you don’t care. Yeah, you save yourself from the hurt and pain, but you also shut yourself from all the good things too.
It’s hard to believe in and feel love, if you don’t let your heart get attached. If you don’t feel those emotions. Sometimes you want things to just be”this or that.” For life to be black and white. But we shouldn’t want life to be so clear-cut. That’s what makes it life. It’s unpredictable and uncontrollable. We shouldn’t want a life of gray, but we shouldn’t want a life in black and white either. Life is a blend of ups and downs, and should be a blend of colors too.
